Doll In Toyland

I'm not a slave
I'm not a mistress
I hope I can be the mistress of my mind and my emotions
But I hope I can let my heart guide me into life
I hope I can lost the more of me in someone else who can love me for what I am
Like Paul Valery say "Perdre le plus de moi même en l'autre"

I'm not a toy
I'm not a machine
I feel like a toy when life give horrors to me
I feel like a machine, catatonic, when my heart crumble in little pieces
When bad feelings submerge me
When I am subjected to the chemistry of my brain, of my body
I feel like a toy when others do rot with what I offer